Nobody

          Dear Diary,

          Today is another fairly beautiful day in September. School is entering its third week and high school is terrible. I have no friends, and life generally sucks. Average life of a thirteen year old, right? Thinking nobody understands, that life is going to be horrible forever, that I'll eternally be that girl crying and cutting herself in the corner, all because of a little zero-friends problem?

          Tch... you don't know half of it.

Empty Hall by Gamma-Ray Productions,
Released under a CC Attribution, No Derivative Works license

          It's not just the no friends thing that bothers me, its the fact that I do get the occasional friend now and again that's the problem. You see, they come to me and stay for quite awhile. They give me every reason needed to trust them, and each time I think that I have finally found a friend that will stay with me 'till the end. Then right when I need them? Gone. And... they don't just leave quietly, they make sure that they leave the biggest damn mark on my mental health that they can, and it hurts me... so much. It throws me down, and makes me have to use up precious energy to build myself back up. I know that I can't do that much more now, everything hurts, I'm so sensitive about everything at the moment. I never used to be like this... I always used to be stronger, what happened to me?

          Now, I have decided just not to even try making a friend. It does more damage to me than anything else. I mean... really, I think it should be considered self-harm, or at least in my case. I have in the past tried to talk to someone about my issue as well, and that didn't help in the slightest. I thought counsellors were supposed to help you... not make you worse. Bleh... Never mind, it doesn't matter now anyway, this was two years ago.

          As for the rest of the day, maybe I'll sit and watch a movie, or several. Perhaps "Lord of the Rings"? "Harry Potter"? "The Hunger Games"? "The Avengers"? All of them? I don't know, I do know I'm going to make myself some hot chocolate though. I'm freezing.

          Question: What is your worst high school memory?